Stupidity

Why am I so stupid

I try to love

And it always blows up in my face

I long so much for love

But it never seems to work out

I always end up getting hurt

And hurting the ones that I love

I pull away from my friends

And reject those I love

And for what

To find happiness

No, all I find is sorrow

My heart gets broken

And I get knocked down

It's so hard to pull myself back up

But I keep letting it happen

Why am I so stupid